I had a dream yesterday which sums up all of what I have thought of suicide untill now. I forgot how it started but some how I was at a party and then I was with some people maybe my dad I dont know that wouldnt make sense though but anyway. In the dream I remember thinking to myself and debating whether or not I should go through with it. Then I started leaning more towards the doing it direction. Because in the real world I consciously think that if I had to die at any given moment due to a car accident, or a natural disaster like hurricane that I wouldnt care whats the point anyways why prolong the inevitable. So in my dream I had gotten in a bathtub but before I did I think I told my dad that I was going to commit suicide, I dont know why though. So I got in a bathtub and was thinking of how I should cut my wrist horizontally or vertically. But then I thought to myself. If I kill my self I’m going to leave my family in a great debt because of the cost of funerals and I didnt want to be an asshole and do that to them, never realizing the emotional pain I would bring. And I also was thinking that I didnt want to die just yet. I felt like I wanted to do more things before I left this world and wouldnt be satisfied if I didnt do that. So untill I do those things I’ll postpone those suicide Ideas if not get rid of them. So back to my title question. Where or how can kill myself without leaving a funeral debt that they have to pay. I wouldnt be surprised if ya reading this would be thinking I’m crazy

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every killer i have heard about or most like the guy from the columbine killings and all of those and the guy who drove the armored bull dozer and killed people with it and all of the terrorists and that why is it that they all kill them self’s in the end is their some mental problem or fear of going to jail that makes it so much worse that you kill your self cause i see this as irrational and i cant help but ask why they do this even if i was a killer and killed many people i wouldn’t kill my self

some people kill them selves but didn’t those people ever asked them self this question? except for the people who are living in a lot of pain then thats ok because its understandable. but killing your self dos not make sense to me. if you want to die just think maybe you might not want to die tomorrow. because what if you miss out on something. then you are shit out of luck.
like i said if you don’t see a purpose than wait until tomorrow and maybe one will come along.

I came to USa houping that my feelings about killing my self will change but I feel same after 2 years in USA .I am person that helpps everybady and so many people love me because of what I did and what I do in everyday life .What is keeping me a life is love that my family and friends have for me and I am having hard time to hurt them with killing my self .Please if you konw what is wron with me helpp me because I am feeling that I can not handel my self any more to be alive .
Thank you for reding .
Best wishis in your life .
Sincerely
Kushtrim