not the killing your self kind

the wrost thing you can do to yourself?
besides killing your self?

i dram that there was a man looking for me to kill me?
then suddenly i saw my self get killed and i saw myself in a coffin & i was trying to get myself outt & nobady would help me?

I have always lived in a crappy house.The place is always a mess. My dad has an anger problem.My mom ran off with another man. then he was murdered. She came back for a week them ran off again with another man. I never have a lot of money. I’m in the 9th grade.I cant get arround the house because its filled with pointless stuff. The fridge is filled with rotten food so I dont eat much.Just top ramen and water. I try to be as normal as the other people at school but I really know I’m not. My school life is good. Girls like me and I got plenty of friends but my family favors my sister (the not psyco one) They take her out places and buy her nice things while I stay at my dirty home.Once I’m 18 I’m joining the Marines so I can just leave this place. I dont want to be like my dad or mom. I dont want to go to a foster home. I tought of killing my self several times but killing your self is a sin.I dont really believe in god or after life anymore but I dont want to take chances. what do i do

pretty cool

Civilization wise? Honestly im not sure but would love to hear others opinions..

Do we all kill off our self’s? Do we kill of almost every other species on the planet? We living in space? Countries fighting over the last bit of coal energy?

What do you think?