I had a dream yesterday which sums up all of what I have thought of suicide untill now. I forgot how it started but some how I was at a party and then I was with some people maybe my dad I dont know that wouldnt make sense though but anyway. In the dream I remember thinking to myself and debating whether or not I should go through with it. Then I started leaning more towards the doing it direction. Because in the real world I consciously think that if I had to die at any given moment due to a car accident, or a natural disaster like hurricane that I wouldnt care whats the point anyways why prolong the inevitable. So in my dream I had gotten in a bathtub but before I did I think I told my dad that I was going to commit suicide, I dont know why though. So I got in a bathtub and was thinking of how I should cut my wrist horizontally or vertically. But then I thought to myself. If I kill my self I’m going to leave my family in a great debt because of the cost of funerals and I didnt want to be an asshole and do that to them, never realizing the emotional pain I would bring. And I also was thinking that I didnt want to die just yet. I felt like I wanted to do more things before I left this world and wouldnt be satisfied if I didnt do that. So untill I do those things I’ll postpone those suicide Ideas if not get rid of them. So back to my title question. Where or how can kill myself without leaving a funeral debt that they have to pay. I wouldnt be surprised if ya reading this would be thinking I’m crazy