I fell in love with her at first sight. I started to give her stares she noticed and liked it. Then I would walk by her and she would have a light smile. Everything went smooth. But then all the sudden she started to ignore me. I lost allot of weight.. Stayed up all night.. And damaged my health. All because of her. If you could feel how i felt you would have tears in your eyes right now. Anyways so I had the courage to go up to her and ask her out. And after 6 months of playing and pretending she like me she rejected me with a smile. And I found out she dated my (player) co-worker. I endured mental torture. Now after a year of not speaking to her and ignoring her she found out that i was seeing an other chic. I noticed she looked very upset had tears in her eyes. So the next day I went up to her and asked her how she was doing. She became very happy and energetic. then few days later I noticed she wore allot of make up and nice clothing. and gave me stares and smiles.
What im confused about is did she finally realize how much i love her? maybe she heard a rumore that i was a player thats why she rejected me before?
IS she playing with me again? Is she using me to get revenge on my (player) co-worker.
Song: Kill Yourself Band: SOD Album: Speak English or Die Year: 1985 ~Lyrics: Can’t take it, never could Time to end it, wish you would Friends and family, they’re all gone Life for you is just a con Dig yourself a hole in the ground Push up daisies six feet down Take a dirt nap, buy the farm Inject a bubble in your arm [CHORUS] Kill yourself, kill yourself Why don’t you kill yourself Don’t rely on no one else End it all just kill yourself Life is just a one way ticket Everyone must go around Here’s a bucket go and kick it Slit your wrists without a sound When you go don’t make a big deal No dramatics, don’t overplay Cause don’t you know that we’ll all feel Better once you’ve gone away [CHORUS-MOSH PART] You’re a loser, there’s nothing left for you A worthless loser, at everything you do ~Track list: 1. “March of the SOD” 1:27 2. “Sargent “D” & the SOD” 2:23 3. “Kill Yourself” 2:11 4. “Milano Mosh” 1:32 5. “Speak English or Die” 2:24 6. “United Forces” 1:53 7. “Chromatic Death” 0:43 8. “Pi Alpha Nu” 1:09 9. “Anti-Procrastination Song” 0:06 10. “What’s that Noise” 1:00 11. “Freddy Krueger” 2:32 12. “Milk” 1:54 13. “Pre-Menstrual Princess Blues” 1:20 14. “Pussy Whipped” 2:14 15. “Fist Banging Mania” 2:04 16. “No Turning Back” 0:52 17. “Fuck the Middle East” 0:27 18. “Douche Crew” 1:35 19. “Hey Gordy!” 0:07 20. “Ballad of Jimi Hendrix” 0:05 21. “Diamonds and Rust” (Extended Version) 0:05 Line up: * Billy Milano Vocals * Scott Ian Guitars, backing vocals * Dan Lilker Bass …
this is how my life goes…
the memories of the past i have were good compared to now
its all gone and what i have left is going to go away soon
i cant help thinking of these memories , it hurts soo much
i cant eat , study or be happy at all.
i have so many family problem
i have turned to suicide lot of times
2 times were failed atempt (cold medicine and pain killers).
my life is hell.
my mom even told me go kill your self
i have no one left.
just a small 6 year old sister for who i must go on through this.
please help me
i really dont want my sister to grow up with out me and end up like me.
i dont care about my parents , i dont wana go suicidal again i am always depressed.
i cant ask for antidepressent because i dont talk to my parents.
im all alone and i dont wana die.
i need help with
1)getting over old memories
2)natural antidepressent
4)some good inspiring quote.
5)tell me if your life sucks so atleast i feel better comparing it to myne.
thanks who ever wish to help me.
ill give you all thumbs up and one gets 10 points.
every night i cant sleep. and every night i have the same feeling. that im invisable, mi family doesnt care for me, that im so alone, and that when ever i try to reach out no one notices or doesnt care because im not important enough or no one wants to deal with it. my “friends” at school dont care about me. my mom is to consumed with work and her needs to notice. my sister only comes home to sleep. im sick of this. im sick of crying my self to sleep almost every night. i have things i can never let my mom know. never. i still have night mares about it. i cant get the pictures out of my mind. he did things to me no grown man should EVER do to a teenager…to a kid….. i must of done something to desearve that…….i want to die. i want to be with my father…where i can finaly be cared for and protected. death seems like my only way to escape. but i dont want to leave my mother, she needs me to be strong…with her and for her. she couldnt live with out me. but now in days NO ONE has money for anything. so that puts us at the bottom of the food chain. how can i not give in to my most desiered weakness?everything screams “do it! kill your self! no one will care. you will be with your dad again. its the only way out. the only way to get away, and stay away from all the pain” someone please tell me how to make this feeling go away. tell me how to not think this way, hear these things. please help me. please……
just wondering and don’t say don’t do it or taking your own life is the most selfish thing you can do because you don’t know what selfish is. I’m 16 nobody cares about me not my mom my dad my brothers or sister not even teachers or people at school I cry people just stop and say look at the loser cry and walk away no matter how much I try to fit in I always get ignored or get thrown away. I cry in class and nobody cares its like a daily routine or some that always is expected. I’m young and I train to become a U.S. Marine and all my recruiters yell at me faster, is that all you got? after torture and Hell they just tell me that Im a worthless life a nobody a bums garbage. I tell people my problems but they say deal with them yourself its your demons use your heart but a single heart can’t win a battle alone…I had thoughts about running a knife down my arms in a swirling motion and cutting my stomach and upper chest leaving lines that lead to my heart then finishing it off by stabbing my heart how much will that hurt? and which way would you kill your self.
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