I had a dream yesterday which sums up all of what I have thought of suicide untill now. I forgot how it started but some how I was at a party and then I was with some people maybe my dad I dont know that wouldnt make sense though but anyway. In the dream I remember thinking to myself and debating whether or not I should go through with it. Then I started leaning more towards the doing it direction. Because in the real world I consciously think that if I had to die at any given moment due to a car accident, or a natural disaster like hurricane that I wouldnt care whats the point anyways why prolong the inevitable. So in my dream I had gotten in a bathtub but before I did I think I told my dad that I was going to commit suicide, I dont know why though. So I got in a bathtub and was thinking of how I should cut my wrist horizontally or vertically. But then I thought to myself. If I kill my self I’m going to leave my family in a great debt because of the cost of funerals and I didnt want to be an asshole and do that to them, never realizing the emotional pain I would bring. And I also was thinking that I didnt want to die just yet. I felt like I wanted to do more things before I left this world and wouldnt be satisfied if I didnt do that. So untill I do those things I’ll postpone those suicide Ideas if not get rid of them. So back to my title question. Where or how can kill myself without leaving a funeral debt that they have to pay. I wouldnt be surprised if ya reading this would be thinking I’m crazy

my ex gf sent me this txt saying that she was about to kill herelf so ofcourse i call txt her back & im all worried she doesnt respond for a while then she txts me back & i was telling her not to do it etc. etc. & then she tells me that basically part of the reason shes about to is b/c she really misses me & i wont take her back..so this kind of puts me in the position were im like dang…i still love her & all but ive been moving on..but then again i dnt want her killing herself over me..so i tell her ill take her back..& immediately she gets a lil happier & i make her promise shes not going to shoot herself..

okay problem is..i knw deep down that i really dnt want to be with her anymore & i broke up with her in the 1st place…(but i knw how much she loves me b/c i cheated on her multiple times(told her) in she still came back to me) so now im in a relationship i dnt want to be in and this just happened a few hrs ago so it can only get worse

WHAT SHOULD i DO??
HMM thats the same thing i was thinking at 1st too(that she was just trying to make me go back with her)..but iDk b/c i had somebody else txt & call her too & she didnt talk to them…BUT WHATEVER IM STARTING NOT TO CARE HELL IM going to just KEEP ON DATING MY current BF & whatever happens happens
yep im just going to tell her in the morning at school

Is there any reason not to commit suicide without God or utopia?
With the victory of libertarian ideas and values, what are the arguments against nihilistic rape and murder
The 19th century saw the death of God. The 20th century saw the rebirth of religion without God. We now have “human nature”, the fall from grace, Calvinist total depravity, original sin. Without redemption. Full Story »

Like without using knifes or razorblades or anything.
Also, don’t assume I actually want to kill my self. Trust me I don’t, I’m just curious.